Thursday 16 February 2012

WE ARE ON A BREAK!

Hey guys :)


So, this is a post that I never really wanted to write but kind of knew it was coming although didn't expect it really until my uni study leave, but basically I'm taking a break from my blog until I've finished uni in June. Thought I'd tell it to you straight as quickly and painlessly as possible because this is really hard for me and I really didn't want to have to do this. I figured it's like ripping off a band-aid, so blurted it out just like that.

I know it is a pretty huge blog break to take, like, most people take a week or two off and I'm planning on having about four months off. But I really think it's probably the best decision for me right now.

Why am I doing it? Well, essentially, I'm doing it because I love it too much. I'm in my final year at university, and due to a terrible module choice I made last year, I spent most of my second year and this first three quarters of this third and final year struggling to reach the standards I know I'm capable of. Once I started struggling, I realized that I didn't really think what I was struggling for was really worth it; I stopped enjoying my degree and started putting my energy into something I love doing, blogging. If you know me, then you know I would blog all day every day for free. I've dreamed so many times about just dropping out of uni and becoming a professional blogger for a living, but we all know that its not as simple as that. Someone has to pay the bills, boost their job prospects and most importantly, bring home a diploma at the end of the three years so their parents can be proud. So I stuck at it, despite my wishes getting stronger and stronger over the past few months.

Finding myself now in the 'final push' of my university career, my logical mind reasons that it simply wouldn't make sense to drop out now. Sure, I have the dissertation left to hand in, the exams to sit, and the results day to attend, three of the hardest things any student has to 'look forward to' particularly if they aren't even remotely passionate about what they're doing, or can think of much better ways to spend their time. However, it is only a few months left so I know it just wouldn't be worth quitting now, especially not just because I'm scared that I might only get an 'average' degree rather than 'above average'.

If I do average on results day, sure I'll find it a bit of a bummer, but I'll be proud of myself because I stuck at it. But I need to stick at it in order to achieve that sense of pride, and the people around me seem to think I won't get that if I keep up my blog at the same time and I get that. I get that because every minute I want to blog. Once a week I want to pick up a uni book. Maximum. So this is all about eliminating my main distraction.

Now, it's bad enough having to sacrifice something you love in place of the possibility of gaining something else. It's even worse when you're making that sacrifice for something you're kind of indifferent about but want for the people around you.

That's the most important thing for you guys to know, I'm not giving up my blog for myself or to push myself forward. I'm giving it up for the people around me, who I can't bear to disappoint. At least not if I knew I could help it.

As I say, I don't know if dropping my blog will mean the difference between a 2.1 and 2. But at least I'll know I did my absolute best and couldn't have done any more.

It's kind of ironic that I should have to make this decision just as things are going so well for my little blog. Companies and events are starting to recognize me, fellow bloggers are working with me and I'm beginning to feel right in my element having just run and awarded my '150 follower giveaway'. I can only hope that all of my followers will still be here when I return, waiting for me with as much support as ever they did. And you know what, if not, I'd earn you all right back again in June, because I've loved every minute of it :D

Literally have a little tear in my eye right now, because I'm under a lot of pressure at the moment, but I'm pretty sure that this is the right thing to do. I know you all probably think I'm making a huge ceremony of this but it really is a big deal for me right now as I know I'm sentencing myself to at least four months of pure misery. But nonetheless, in the words of Christina Aguilera (YES I went there) 'They say if you love something let it go, If it comes back, It's yours, And that's how you know.'

So for the foreseeable future, my blog and I are on a break, and until such a time when I think it's a good idea to pick it back up again, you may only see the odd guest post on here (if that). However, I will still be available on Twitter as @HauteFuture and you can still email me at hautefuture@gmail.com

Thank you for reading and for keeping the smile on my face for the past year and a half. It's meant an awful lot and all I ask now is that you close your eyes, make a wish, count to three and say a little prayer for me. Hopefully I can come back in June and tell you all that this was so worth it. But until next time, this is me, signing off :'(

Love
gabriellasofia
x

21 comments:

  1. Ahhh Sweetie, don't be sad, it's not the end you just need to do what you gotta do, you will be back and you can concentrate on blogging without feeling guilty and like you should be studying! I'm sure all your hard work will pay off! Good luck and see you soon :) xxx

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  2. Good luck with everything, don't worry i'm sure all your followers including myself will still be here in June! :)

    Take care
    Zara
    x
    http://lifesprettyvisions.com

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  3. awe Good luck girlie! we will miss you! cant wait til June!

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  4. Focus on uni :) we will all be here waiting for your return !! :) your blog is one of my favourites and you will be missed:) xx

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  5. stay strong and study hard! i will still be here in June and of course tweet you lots!
    do not feel bad about putting your education first! it is the most important thing in your life right now ok? :) it'll be your treat over summer! mwah xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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  6. Aw :( I absolutely love your posts! But I don't blame what you're doing- I'd do excactly the same! It'll all be worth it in the end :) Good Luck! xx
    http://elliesfavouritethings.blogspot.com/

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  7. Suddenly, I feel quite guilty for not making a similar decision (because I know it'd be the right one). haha Best of luck with uni and looking forward to your return! :) x

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  8. Good luck with everything hun! You made the right choice,
    I'll still be here for your return :)

    Holly,xo

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  9. Aww this is really sweet, you are making the right choice though and it will be worth it. I’ll be here on your return and I am sure some new people too!

    Good luck with it all x

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  10. Aww sad I only just discovered your blog post TOWIB, but I finished my degree last year, I wasn't overly passionate about it anymore and put more effort into my job than my dissertation, but decided to take a step back and dedicate my time to my exams and such and it was so worth it, at times its tiresome and ALOT of hard work but it really is worth it when you get the result you wanted, and you get to see the hard work pay off.
    Your blog and followers will be waiting for when you do finish!

    Good Luck sweetie
    xxx
    miabellaluna.blogspot.com

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  11. Aaaawwwwwww :( I am sure your 'little blog' will miss you, I know I will miss reading your posts!! I really hope you do well at Uni and can come back and tell us all about it xxx

    Em

    x

    http://www.emsmixedbag.blogspot.com

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  12. Good luck! I'm sure everyone will be waiting for you when you come back, without a doubt :) x

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  13. you will be missed in the blogging world but all your dedicated readers will be waiting when you're back! glad to have a sister that can be my role model when it comes to making these kind of decisions. love you sis

    the girl next door
    x

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  14. Oh hun! So sorry you're feeling the stress :( I know EXACTLY how you feel though, I blogged all through my first year and loved it so much but had to give it up because of my marks weren't amazing, now I'm coming to the end and can't wait to take it up again. Believe me though, 4 months will fly by!

    4 months doesn't seem like a long time, I remember my favourite blogger used to be Blair on a Budget and she'd post once maybe every one or two months (before she deleted her blog *sniff*) and I'd love it when she did because it was worth the wait. It's really not about how often you blog but the quality when you DO blog so if you have time for one or two posts in the next four months it'll be sure to keep you in people's minds because whenever you write a post it's fantastic.

    You've done the hard bit now and got your blog recognised and faithful followers, like me! And judging by everyone's comments you won't be getting rid of us any time soon anyway!

    That being said I'll miss checking your blog every day! :( Good luck with uni work, remember there are people just like you all over the country panicking about it so try not to feel too down.

    Can't wait to have you back already!

    xxxx

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  15. Aw, good luck! You know yourself what you need to do & everyone will be waiting here for your return, in excitement!

    Luceeloves.blogspot.com.

    xxx

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  16. know how blogging can take over your life! Good luck with Uni stuff and see you when you are back x

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  17. Good Luck with your uni work Gabbi :) Only a few months left though and it's already going stupidly fast! Hope you're okay :) xxx

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  18. Good luck with it all. Uni is really important, so a wise choice. We wi
    L all still be here when you return :) xx

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  19. GOOD LUCK!! i have been really busy this week so not been commenting much but you are making the right decision!!! I was one mark off a first and I still am so annoyed with myself six years later.

    I could and should have done it but two modules that I faffed about on let me down.

    Also, my top tip- I lost ten marks on my dissertation for my bibliography being a mess as I scrambles it together at the last minute. Keep all your references safe and do it properly as in theory, these are easy marks that you can get in the bag just from being organised.

    Good luck!!! x x x

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  20. P.S. there is nothing worse than knowing you didn't do your best. If you get a 2.2 even though you tried your absolute hardest then it's a completely different mark to a 2.2 that came from not giving it 100% so don;t be too hard on yourself when the grades come x

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  21. I just wanted to say thank you to everyone that has been so supportive during this break! Your tips and words of encouragement have been invaluable to me particularly when I've been so concerned that all of the contacts I've built up this past year with my readers etc would be ruined.

    Thank you so much for proving my concerns to be unfounded and for being there for me at all times.

    I love you all!

    Love
    gabriellasofia
    x

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